Saturday, July 12, 2008

T Minus Three Weeks

I don't want it to end so soon. But on the other hand, I am super psyched to meet the little guy who has been tenderizing my insides. Will he look like Mark? Will he have hair or be bald?

But I love being pregnant and would like an extra month, as long as I can stay feeling the way I am now, just without all the sweating.

Because pregnancy has felt like this:

Month 1 - not feeling any different at all, except for the thrill of knowing your pregnant, but also knowing the cold hard percentages of being of 'advanced maternal age.' What a vomitous term.

Month 2, 3, and most of 4 - 24 hour nausea. Can't stand the sight of, smell of, or mention of food. Eat toast, but have to run into the other room while it is toasting, or else the smell will make me throw up.

Month 4 - put on partial bedrest until...

Month 5 - Did I wake up today and feel not nauseous? And you say I can do some exercise now? I do a happy dance! But, wait, now I look like chubby girl, not glowing pregnant girl.

Month 6 - still look like chubby girl. When will I look pregnant? Oh, yeah...

Month 7 - YAY! I feel incredible and look pregnant.

Month 8 - ditto

Month 9 - so far, ditto again!

So after all that, I just want to keep enjoying being the conversation piece in the room. I want to keep enjoying feeling this tiny precious soul living and moving in my belly. I want to enjoy nurturing and growing him with my own flesh and blood. It's okay, little buddy, squish my stomach to the size of a walnut and punch my bladder all you want. You don't know how awesomely mind blowing it is to have you in there. I started to feel aware of your own awareness not to long ago. I wish I had the words to describe what it is like to feel your sweet spiritual energy inside me. You are so newly made from that Divine womb, and then you blessed my own. I am so privileged to experience that kind of energy. To know you are made of the same stardust I am. Made of atoms that have been here since the beginning of the universe, waiting for you. Atoms you plucked from me to build yourself. But don't worry, I also see you as the gorgeous human who makes mistakes, wants to kick and scream, and who will love.

Just feel free to take your time, just not too much time. Okay?


Kristin C. said...

I want to be pregnant!!!!!
Babies! Babies! Babies!

ks1k said...

Well said Joy.

So happy for you


Vita Hardy said...

Hey - Congratulations! You visited my blog recently and said in a comment that you'd be curious about what cleaning stuff I'm using. I've gotten really "back to basics" with some home made cleaning stuff... but also, there is a great website you might want to check out called: they have a section with info about cleaning stuff, and also a book I cannot recommend highly enough which has TONS of info about toxicity in cleaning stuff (among other things). The book is called Healthy Child Healthy World. My daughter is almost 8 months old and I only wish I knew this stuff from day one. Ah, well, I'm doing my best.

Best of luck for a healthy, happy, smooth and quick delivery!!!

Jenny and Vita

PS - there are also a bunch of healthy / green / paranoid hippy mom blogs and websites that I really like and check daily. If you're interested, I'll be posting those in a sidebar in my blog some time soon (probably this weekend). There's so much info out there!