Sunday, December 24, 2006

New Year's Resolution

I don't think I have ever really made an official New Year's Resolution before. I have always thought that life changes should happen when they need to happen. But mostly coincidentally, I have decided to make some changes that I will make permanent.

1. Be Happy.

2. Become a Yogi.

3. Make Friends.

Number one seems very simple. Being happy is a choice. I choose to be happy. No longer will I let hormones, society, or jealousies affect my choice to be happy. Anyone who reads this blog knows first hand that I succumb to depression and lonliness way too often. I hope that I did not bring anyone down with those posts. If I did, then you choose happiness too!
I know that I will have moments when the stress or sadness will creep in. I resolve to study exactly why those feeling are knocking, and hopefully learn something from letting them go.

Number two is related to number one because I plan to use yoga as part of my process for achieving happiness. I joined City Yoga a couple weeks ago and have been going almost every day. I have always wanted to follow some physical discipline like ballet, martial arts, or yoga. Yoga was a good choice for me because I find the spiritual aspect just as challenging and inspiring as the body aspect. (It's freakin' hard). I find that practicing yoga combines the spiritual, mental and physical aspects just right. It has been very rewarding. I already feel a lifting of spirit!

And I think number three is related to one and two. I could go on and on about my lack of friend-making abilities. Christy once told me that when we were in 8th grade, people used to ask her,"Why are you friends with Joy? She's so scary." Yes, I was a bitter, angry, scared person. Probably necessary for being an artist, but not good for attracting friends. When I think back to all the friends I have had since high school, I notice that it was the other person who invited me along, and for some reason kept doing so. Maybe I never learned how to actively be a friend first. I notice that it would take me a long time to open up to someone. What am I afraid of? What's the worst that could happen. It doesn't help that I usually work alone all day, and all my spare time is spent at my easel. I would welcome any advice you might have in this department. I feel I need it.

So Happy New Year! I hope that there is a positive change for you and for the rest of the world. Be the positive change you want to see in the world!


ks1k said...

RE: 2. Become a Yogi.
At first I didn't know if you meant Yogi Bear or Yogi Berra. Then I figures out you meant to practice Yoga.

Got It. :-)


AllBeehive said...

Ooooh I see. We are only friends because I wouldn't take no for an answer :) and I just kept coming back for more and more joy. I can't get enough of Joy, and why aren't YOU friends with Joy was surely my answer to the naysayers.